• Val

    I’m sorry you feel this way!
    I won’t say I know how you feel, because it would be a lie: I’m 25 too and so far my life has been easy. I’ve had “normal” problems, I’ve never had to worry about how to survive.
    Do you have a GoFundme page?

  • Kathleen Margaret Schwab

    I am 50 and I also have chronic pain and chronic exhaustion. I run a business from my home because I can’t drive (body hurts too much – I had a licence and drove for years, longer than I should have really) and I’m not healthy enough for a regular job. I am lucky enough to have a husband who can work full time, although he is chronically underemployed and underpaid, due to all the market forces you talked about above. I am old enough to know I was fortunate when I was growing up because there were alot more opportunities. You are right – it is all real, but most people have trouble admitting how systemic it is.

    • cynthiajeub

      I’m so sorry to hear that you struggle with this as well, but I’m glad to know you’re in a healthy relationship and can work from home. Thank you for sharing!

    • cynthiajeub

      Thank you so much for confirming this. I’m sorry you’re going through it too, but I’m glad to hear that your situation is rather stable. I’m working on home business/freelancing as well.

  • Kim Schulz

    Have your state expanded medicaid through the affordable care act if they have maybe you should sign up and will help

    • cynthiajeub

      Nope. They rejected it.

  • Kim

    I know so, so many people who are in similar situations. It’s fucking terrible.

    And on top of it all, so many people buy into the idea that your income determines your worth as a person, so people with low incomes must be terrible people. And they use that bullshit notion to neglect and abuse poor people.

    No. Society is fucking unfair, and we should fucking fix it so that people don’t get into situations like yours. We should guarantee a basic standard of living, and basic resources like healthcare.

    Anyway, I really do hope that you can manage to find some stability and support.

    • cynthiajeub

      Thank you so much! It’s terrifying to see the recent policy changes that directly undermine the poor, but I’m trying.

  • Cyndi Sparre

    I truly believe that you have fallen into a trap of negativity. Your mental negativity has begun to affect your physical realities. You won’t escape unless you want to.

  • Cyndi Sparre

    I believe you are trapped by negativity, and it is affecting your physical realities. You will not escape unless you want to.

  • Anon

    Might have fibromyalgia. I know I do and your symptoms sound like mine before I started taking Cymbalta (a serotonin–norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor) and eating AIP paleo: (https://ultimatepaleoguide.com/autoimmune-protocol/ ; for the short version of AIP paleo, scroll down to the end of the link to the table). Probiotics are helpful too (http://time.com/3817375/probiotics-depression/). This one is fairly inexpensive: https://www.vitaminshoppe.com/p/ultimate-10-probiotic-13-billion-100-capsules/vs-2164 Before Cymbalta, I took 5-HTP for depression and GABA for anxiety. Crack open the capsules and take sublingual for maximum absorption. Don’t know if I was taking enough of 5-HTP and GABA before switching to Cymbalta… Might try switching back to those as it’s freaking expensive (and can cause liver damage, sigh.)

    Suggestion: ACA might be helpful (http://www.adultchildren.org/lit/Laundry_List.php) Program of a couple varieties, including ACA, saved my life. If you have problems with alcohol / drugs, detox from those first; “work your programs in the order they are killing you”.

    Best wishes.

    • cynthiajeub

      I suspect as much as well. I just haven’t been able thus far to get thorough enough medical investigation for a diagnosis. Thanks for the advice!

  • Moh’ed A-Nasir Dhagajuun

    Dear Cynthia

    I Just watched your videos about QURAN and I admire your truthfulness and fairness, I also admire your struggle for a quality life without depending on anyone, depending on yourself alone.

    I encourage to read more about Islam, and I hope Allah will guide to the right path.

    Again, I wish the best for you and hope you will make your dreams come true, in this world and the hereafter.


  • noooothanks

    Hey there 😊 as someone who was where you are on very many levels i want you to know that you can file for social security benefits without a current horrible diagnosis. You can give them whatever information you do have from whatever therapists or doctors you have seen. i personally attended a free clinic for a while to get some medical and psychological perspective on where I stood but if that is too hard to do then just submit what you have. If they need more information they will pay to have you assessed medically and psychologically, whatever is necessary to make a decision. I was so afraid to go through the process as it seemed daunting and made me feel like a failure to need help. Plus what if they didnt agree that i needed Or deserved help as I wasnt sure I was worth It.

    The hardest part was starting the process. It was also hard to wade through the process plus go against all the hatred i had learned against getting govt assistance. But then I had insurance, counseling, medications etc and ive even just gotten a degree in public health. Yes its been a long road. But if i can do it as a homeschool survivor, an abuse and rape survivor as well as a person widowed young then you can make it to the stage of, If not exactly perfect, then at least OK and mostly functional too. 😎 i know youre in pain in every way. but i know you can make it because I have. Dont give up. Ever.
    I know that this wont fix all the injustice in the world. But it might be a step in the right direction as far as putting Cynthia Jeub in a better place. And thats a good start. Love to you.